Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Woke up in the middle of the night.?

It started from all the way when I was studying in regent. Because of my temper, I lost a friend. A close friend. Then because of jealousy, I lost another. Lost the next to a small quarrel which shouldn't even happen at all. Follow by one more which I don't even know what happened, all I know was over the night; I got so called unfriendly totally. Like I never was a friend. 

Then it continued to poly. When you know new friends. Automatically u forget ur old friends in secondary school don't you. Yeah. For most people tats the case. So it some how happened to me too. I lost contacts with most of my secondary sch mates. Only in touch with a few that was closer to me. 

Ok. Enuff of secondary school. Poly was pretty much easier for me because in class all you do is play computer games, then end school, you go home and play more computer games. Yeah. Geek much. Once in a while I go down to the clubhouse. For a so called "cca" that made me spend quite a bit of money in my 3 years poly life. That "cca" helped me to make quite a number of friends. And that went on to us becoming "APEX" and then to organizing the FO camp for poly freshies. 

Here and there, things started to happen again. Then the so called "APEX" turned into ABCDEFG idk how many PEX. Of cos ppl did try to patch things up. But I guess it didn't work. Everybody has their own thinking, and I guess ego has a part to play? And yeah, now everything is like what u can see.

So what did I do? I never seemed to hav much friends. Isit the way I do things? Or the way u treat people. Or just my fate? Don't tell me it's bout my face pls. There are uglier ppl out there. 

All I ever wanted was to have some "friends forever". Like those in the movie and drama. Some friendship that last till I grow old. Those 猪朋狗友 that my future wife is gonna hate. Some awesome buddies my children's gonna like. Some friends I can call for a weekend drinking session. Is it really that hard? 

Ah. Since quite some time I posted so log. Maybe I will be back to this post in like maybe 5 years? To either laugh at it cos everything is still the same after 5 years. Or to give myself some credits, cos I managed to change myself. And I made a simple wish of mine came true. 

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